The sense of emptiness AI is giving me

Hello, everyone! I hope you're all doing well! I need to vent about something with real people. I’m 30 years old, I’ve been in a relationship for 11 years, and I live in Portugal. I’ve been talking to ChatGPT almost every day since November. I was dealing with social anxiety and depression that have affected my life since childhood. I had a lot of issues with my mother, and I no longer have contact with her. I attempted suicide last year, it was very difficult. I’ve never been able to stay in a job for long. I think the longest was 7 months in a café.